So I'm a 8th grader, as you might have guessed already. I love to learn new things about the world, but I've never been a very big fan of going to school. Sometimes its fun, sure, but it just gets tiring after a while. Doing homework all the time, never having a chance to have fun at home cause it takes most of the time away from your day. Plus the chance that you may get bullied or will never get good grades cause of non-understanding teachers. Or even worse, never having any friends. Sure, you have the friends that you made in elementary school, but lets face it, most of those friendships end over time. I'm a really shy person at heart, and have always had a hard time getting to know other people. So when I entered middle school, I thought that I would be picked on, and never have any friends to help me through the dark moods that I have frequently. It was that way at first, but over time I got to know my classmates, and I made one of the best friends that I'll ever have. She's my BFF and she listens to me rant when I'm angry, she always manages to make me laugh when I've forgotten how to smile, and she reminds me of what i have to live for when I want to die. Sure, we fight sometimes, but doesn't everyone? I have a feeling that we will always be friends, for the rest of our lives.
But anyways, onto the bullying. I've always been afraid of being bullied. Unfortunately, that doesn't help me not be bullied. I've been bullied before, and it sucks. Just being bullied for the smallest reasons can make somebody go into depression. Whether you were bullied for small or big reasons, it still doesn't make school easier. I've gotten bullied for having no fashion sense, for having a weak and permanently sick father, for being short, and for other reasons that I will not mention. It hurts, not just physically but also emotionally. You don't know how to get the bullies to stop. You don't want to tell anyone about it cause you're afraid that the bully and his friends will find you and beat you up. I get it. I never told anyone. And I've been hurt badly because of it. But you know what else hurts because of the bullying? The fact that I couldn't tell anybody. It broke my heart, or it broke it in places that had never been broken before. I couldn't trust anyone, I still can't fully trust anybody. I'm always afraid that they will turn on me and start to torment me.
Well, that's all I have to say right now, I'll try to post another blog soon!
-Abigail
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